She Who Laughs Last: A Nightmare On Pennsylvania Ave

It’s doubtful any political junkies missed the really big news yesterday. Joe Biden will not be prosecuted for HIS classified documents issues. But the reason why as stated by the special counsel investigating the current President of the United States is that Biden would be unlikely to be convicted by a jury as he would be seen as a doddering well-meaning old man of diminished mental acuity. This is mostly my characterization of the special counsel’s language but, trust me, I’m not cooking the books here.

Former Bernie Sanders campaign staffer Krystal Ball gives her reading of the report and what it signifies here.

And even though Krystal is a prominent face of the indie-left media, her take is pretty much an accurate characterization of the mainstream establishment media’s reading of what it all means.

Look at the lead story on the New York Times this morning. I’m gifting it via this link so if you don’t have a Times subscription you can still read it here

But that’s not the most significant part of this story for me. After the report was made public and the media tongues began to wag, and as the sun began to set over the Biden White House, Sundowner Syndrome himself decided to hold a somewhat impromptu prime-time address and press availability in order to defend himself and attack the special counsel’s characterization of his mental state.

Biden looked like an angry old man but we’ve certainly seen worse examples of his mental decline in just the last few days. That’s also not the story for me.

What I found to be absolutely JAW DROPPING (but still not the point of this piece) was the behavior and treatment of the president by the White House press corps.

It seemed (at least in the edit I saw last night) to start with Peter Doocy the FOX News reporter who is a constant daily thorn in the administration’s side.

But this wasn’t that.

It quickly became very clear to me that someone told the piranhas that it was finally okay for them to go ahead and start eating this president and, let me tell you, this was one HANGRY grouping of this nation’s most prestigious news organizations’ top correspondents. You knew these probably once idealistic journalists had been deprived of doing their actual jobs for FAR too long.

They all but ran poor Joe out of office right then and there. I’ll start this (I hope) at the point where that good White House applesauce Joe likes hits the fan.

But none of this is why I’m writing this piece.

So I started this year with a prediction that either Biden or Trump or both were very likely to be unavailable to voters come November. Astonishingly bad poll numbers along with some of the most uncomfortable video examples of the president’s mental decline yet in the past week or so has resulted in what can only be called visible cracks in the fuselage of this Boeing Boeing gone idea that Joe Biden will ever be re-elected President of the United States. But hey, Joe. Never say never. There’s always 2028.

So why am I writing any of this here today? It’s all over the news. See it for yourselves. None of this is why I’m really here pounding on my laptop.

This all is presenting the likelihood of what can only be described as the Democratic Party’s worst nightmare scenario.

Is it that Joe will announce that he’s not seeking re-election? Nope. That’s not how this is going to go down. Biden has to go now if not sooner. He has to resign the office of the presidency. Full stop. I believe that’s coming very soon. 

If Biden were simply to declare he’s not seeking a second term he would still be there. He would still be a story that would be running parallel to the story of whoever the Democratic Party is running at the top of their ticket. He would continue to be a doddering leader of the free world during these so very treacherous times. So, while the Democratic Party would be desperately trying to establish their replacement candidate as the story, Joe Biden’s continuing mental decline would still be an issue for all of us and a competing headline for the Democratic Party’s preferred election year narrative.

Enter Kamala. Yep. There she is, the cackling nightmare we’ve all been dreading. But this is also the Democratic Party’s worst nightmare. And here is why.

Many are the reports coming from inside the White House about how recalcitrant the vice-president has grown over the last year or so. She has been bristling at how she’s being used or not used by the administration. She is reported to be one unhappy camper. Yes, she probably still laughs uncontrollably for no reason, but this shit is no longer funny for her and especially not funny for the Democratic Party because, while they will be more than happy to celebrate Kamala as the country’s first female president, they do not want her to be the candidate that replaces Joe Biden on the ballot in November.

Joe Biden resigns the presidency and the Democrats and the news media celebrate the nation’s first woman president. Personally, I too would love to celebrate this historic moment. I once thought Kamala Harris was a pretty sharp cookie. But no one thinks that anymore. 

The Biden administration has never found a way to use her in which she doesn’t end up embarrassing herself and the administration in short order. So they’ve hidden her away. The public has had her number since she first entered the 2020 Democratic Primary. Senator Kamala Harris of California was exposed over and over again during her short and painful primary season run as the walking, rambling, inappropriately laughing personification of an empty pants suit. VP Harris never caught on with the American public in the three years she’s been in office and the real-life VEEP’s poll numbers to this very day are worse than even the ever-declining numbers not enjoyed by the president.

But now he’s gone and she is president. There was no deal to be made. Ha-Ha Harris was the Vice President of the United States and the Democratic Party put her there. THAT was the deal that was made. Now they as well as the rest of us are stuck with her. Certainly someone is going to have to impress upon her the Democratic Party establishment’s desire that she forego any attempt to run on her own at the top of the party’s ticket in November. “No way, honey,” Someone’s going to be thinking. “This silliness stops right here!”

But now (or then) behind the scenes, is where the nightmare truly begins. The party has no power over her. She’s the President of the United States. If leaks from the administration and her former staffers are to be believed, and they are believed here inside my head, she probably hates every White House face she sees. And so I think President Kamala Harris will go rogue on the party that put here there. I think she will not go quietly into that good-night victory column of history as merely the first woman president of the US. I think she’s going to want to hang onto what she has and try for the brass ring of being the first woman, and a woman of color at that, to be elected President of the United States.

And that, ironically, could end up being a massive nightmare for the Democrats. Best case scenario for the party is an all-California Harris-Newsome ticket and I’d be looking for that announcement even before Joe Biden can remember where he put his PJs.

The however many months Kamala Harris will actually be president could very well be a nightmare for the country and the world. Maybe not as bad as we might imagine. Maybe better than we could have hoped. But this is one pissed-off lady with a wildly inappropriate sense of humor and poll numbers somewhere down in the basement of poll numbers for public figures. I can’t imagine that she’d be someone the Democratic Party can control.

Even I, who rightfully imagines this party to be the most powerful disorganization of humans in the history of the world, have to admit that once Kamala Harris is president she’s going to possess, albeit probably quite temporarily, the power to do whatever the hell she wants to. And, to paraquote a familiar boast from her current boss, to anyone who doesn’t believe that, I would say, just watch her.

The Process of Elimination

The first abbreviated work week of the new year is now all but behind us and nothing truly ground shaking has happened yet in the 2024 presidential election year story. So there’s still time for me to go out on one of those limbs that is, unfortunately, my happy place. 

Obviously I can’t see into the future (okay, maybe that hasn’t always been so obvious) but here’s some things that I think are very likely to happen this year. 

I think it’s ever more likely that either President Joe Biden or former President Donald Trump or both might be unavailable to voters by November. That’s about the most generic way I can put it. Don’t over think it. I’m not. Whatever, however. And look, typically in American politics, election year is almost as much about selecting the eventual party nominees as it is choosing a president. And I get that. In the old days, we didn’t even know until after the conventions late in the summer. So in normal election years past, the parties could take half the year to decide upon their candidate. 

But these are different times and this is a vastly different election year than any of us has ever seen. Trump is now like a mythical American political figure. He’s both a former president and the leader of a movement. MAGA. He has the Republican Party base in a passionately emotional heart and soul head lock. That part of the country is ready to explode as it is right now. Look at January 6th. However you feel about them, those people and that part of America is exponentially more agitated now than they have ever been before. They see these really corrupt banana republic legal efforts (I mean, who doesn’t?) by multiple partisan jurisdictions and entities to remove Trump entirely from the elective process—either by indicting and convicting him or by literally having his name taken off the ballot—and they are quite literally seething.

But no matter the passionate displeasure of so many of our fellow Americans, I think it very possible that these efforts will be successful to the degree where it becomes impossible for Trump to win due to the pile up of enough disqualifying cases and successful efforts to remove the former president from ballots so that the Republican Party, maybe as late as the convention, will then be forced to put forth another candidate at the top of their ticket. Somehow, some way. It might happen.

So let’s just stop right there and consider what that would be like in this country coming at some point later in this already guaranteed to be explosively chaotic election year. 

Everything this massive base of Trump supporters believes is wrong with their party, their country and their elective processes will unfold exactly as they fear, right before their eyes. That alone is going to make for a s— show unlike anything we’ve ever seen. Trump is already a folk hero in much of this country. This will elevate him to political martyrdom. If MAGA can’t vote for Donald Trump on election day the national turmoil this is going to create is going to make, in my opinion, every political uprising we’ve ever seen in this country pale in comparison. JMO. 

But now think of the mad scramble AGAINST THOSE HEADWATERS of the Republican Party trying to replace Trump on the ballot. What an absolute losing proposition. Mission accomplished, Democrats! It’s VERY hard to see any Republican candidate other than Trump bringing out the 80 million or so voters it’s going to take to win the White House. 

Okay? So what about the other side? Well, I think it’s even LESS likely that Joe Biden will be available as the Democratic candidate come November. I’m not even going to go into arguments why. Come on! He’s the incumbent and yet he is DEEPLY unpopular, and the American people believe, quite correctly, that he’s not physically or mentally up to the job and they are, I believe, very disappointed in his policies and in the direction the country is heading. You can pump up, as I know some will, his accomplishments but you’re talking to yourselves. Out there in the eyes of America, this is a president and a party that is in deep trouble. I’ll leave it at that. 

So, just like the Republican Party’s problem, but not as explosively problematic, they’re going to have a hell of time selling either Kamala Harris or Gavin Newsome as America’s best choice for its next president. You could even trot out Michelle Obama and it’s not going to sell with much of this country. Look, I hate to break it to anyone who isn’t quite there yet, but people are REALLY starting to see through this elite duopoly that controls our country and they are, I believe, desperate for another option. Hold that thought. 

But step back now and take in the entire picture. Election Year 2024. Starting right now. Week One. Incumbent president running against his immediate predecessor. Then suddenly, slowly, whatever!, like a disaster movie, one by one or together in short order, both candidates fall out. I’ve only hinted at the actual chaos that will ensue. That chaos, all of it predictable, will only further disgust the American people. 

The spectacle put on by both parties will cause Americans to be even MORE disenchanted with our current national politics. They will be looking for some safe harbor in what would be a complete s— storm of an election year meltdown by both of our major political parties. 

Have I set the stage? I believe I have. 

So now there’s this guy out there named Kennedy who’s managed to get himself on all 50 states’ ballots. There he will be. The son of RFK. People will be hearing his message, which is EXACTLY what they are going to want to hear. If you haven’t heard him, trust me, it’s exactly what the people of this country are going to want to hear, and HAVE wanted to hear, for DECADES. 

These things are all very possible to even more than mildly likely to happen this year. And I think this is how Robert F. Kennedy Jr. will become our next president. And that’s what I’m predicting will happen.

The scenario that I’m describing and predicting is, of course, completely unprecedented. Here now in the year of the election, the two major party candidates, an incumbent president and his immediate predecessor as president, both involuntarily rendered by, in Biden’s case age or infirmity and in Trump’s case the actions of his political opponents, no longer available for the voters to choose as their president. This alone would be something none of us have ever seen before and would set the stage for further unprecedented upheavals.

I mean, we’re clearly heading for something like that on the Trump side of things. This is already very likely to be a quite ugly possibility. But if MAGA can’t vote for Trump because he’s not on the ballot then I predict they’re going to vote for Kennedy.

If both Biden and Trump aren’t on the ballot then I believe Kennedy will win fairly easily and that’s really the point of this piece. I don’t, at this time, want to get into all of the things that have gone wrong in the last seven years under both of these candidates’ administrations and by way of the actions and direction changes of their political parties, but all of that is weighing against the establishment at this time. This is a country that elected a TV guy seven years ago. It remains vastly misunderstood and willfully misrepresented as to why that happened. But here it is. People were just that desperate for someone else. An outsider. Someone who was telling them what they wanted to hear as opposed to someone telling them the same old s—.

This country is on the brink right now. People are already scared. If you had a clean election without RFK Jr. in it, Trump would likely win, but it would be very close. The Democratic Party is scaring the hell out of so many Americans and no one more than those of us who now self-identify, reflexively, and as a pre-emptive act of self defense, as life-long Democrats. And I’m predicting that no matter who is running for either of the major parties the most important collection of letters on the ballot won’t be Kennedy or Trump or Biden or any other candidate’s actual name. It will be the word INDEPENDENT. And that word will be sitting right next to Bobby Kennedy’s name. For that reason alone, even with Biden and Trump still in the race a Kennedy win is possible. But if you remove Trump or both Trump and Biden I think RFK Jr is going to be our next president.

The context all this is taking place in now is so different than anything we’ve ever seen with the exception of what the climate must have been like in America leading up to the Civil War. We are truly living on the brink as a nation of democratic ideals because we have so often and so routinely betrayed those ideals. The chickens have now come home to roost and, as I’ve said, the American people really are waking up and seeing through their government, the relationship between the mainstream media and their elected officials, the donors and industrial complexes who ultimately call the shots, etc. LIKE NEVER BEFORE. The election of Donald Trump in 2016 is all the proof anyone should need that this is the case. Now more and more Americans are there. It’s a trend and it’s going to continue to trend for the rest of most of our lives.

The people of this country are attempting to take it back from those who control it. I would agree with anyone who maintains that it is doubtful as to whether we will actually be able to do so. But the only thing that will stop we the people is undemocratic authoritarianism as realized by the now all powerful duopoly, its donors, and maybe most especially the vast landscape of NGOs that employ the elite political classes that inhabit the Washington DC area and the other affluent coastal regions of the country. This element is already using authoritarian and even fascist tactics to smother free speech on social media or wherever else they may find it and they are NEVER going to stop. Should Bobby Kennedy Jr. become the second President Kennedy he has vowed to dismantle the national security anti-free speech elements in our government and most prominently within the Democratic Party and allow the people of this country to once again speak on their own behalf and be heard. 

Is this Kennedy simply telling so many of us what we want to hear in order to get elected? If you stay tuned you’ll get my take on that and so many other questions and issues that are sure to bombard us here in 2024. Buckle up. This is going to be an election year like no other. 

When They Have Vanished


We photographers deal in things that are continually vanishing, and when they have vanished, there is no contrivance on earth which can make them come back again. – Henri Cartier-Bresson

Lawful But Awful

When it comes to suppressing free speech, the folks at the very top of Twitter, now rebranded as Elon Musk’s favorite letter, can’t seem to resist a good slogan. Perhaps inspired by the apparent success of the FOUR LEGS GOOD, TWO LEGS BAD chant from George Orwell’s Animal Farm, Elon and his somewhat new CEO Linda Yaccarino might have forgotten from their lofty perch how it all turned out for the poor animals who were suckered in by a catchy turn of phrase. 

But we nonfiction animals haven’t forgotten. 

Yaccarino sat for an interview on CNBC and, in just the span of the two-minute clip I saw, the new X-CEO managed to scare the hell out of me and I’m sure many others who still held out hope that the former Twitter platform was making slow, bumpy, but nevertheless forward progress towards removing all of the algorithms and ingrained political sentiments that continue to bedevil so many of us trying to get our voices heard. 

That would be heard, as opposed to not heard. Just to be clear. Yes, we still have our voices. They haven’t taken those away from us yet. But very soon after taking possession of his newest toy, Elon would start tossing around the first of Twitter’s deplorable free-speech suppression catch phrases, Freedom of Speech, Not Reach

What that means, and has meant for so many of us, is that you can speak as freely as you like on Twitter-X. But committed X staff and their algorithms will be watching and waiting and, following instructions coming down from people unseen and powers unknown, they can make sure that whatever you decide to post on Twitter can very easily and far too often be fixed so that it will be seen by you and only you, with the exception of the X minders themselves assigned with watching and censoring us too-free tweeting users. 

I said what I said. Censoring. If there was a natural flow of information on Twitter as there had been over the first decade of its existence, our tweets or replies would be visible to our followers, to those looking for a topic by typing a hashtag into the search field, or to those just scrolling through a thread where our comments would be visible along with everyone else’s. 

That is not, however, how Twitter has worked for most of the last decade. Politics inherent among those who worked at the social media giant, and quite probably many special favors asked of either employees or their higher ups, often resulted in accounts being downranked, shadow banned, and whatever other technical terms or internal methods might apply to censoring people’s voices at Twitter.  

Then, in an effort I’m now assuming was all about garnering street cred among angry and disillusioned Twitter users who had long felt the wet blanket of the company’s former management impacting our accounts, Elon released tons of evidence that, not only was Twitter indeed smothering the free speech of many users, but it was also partnered with and answering the many requests by elements of the US government to silence user voices on Twitter engaging on a wide variety of subjects. 

It would even become common knowledge that Twitter had actually put on the payroll many former employees of government agencies like the FBI. If we weren’t already seeing the pages of Orwell’s 1984 come to life before our very eyes as we read the Twitter Files, compiled by Matt Taibbi and Michael Shellenberger, the two investigative reporters made sure to remind us of the frightening similarities. 

In her sit down on CNBC, Yaccarino showed that she could check every box on a psych eval for the most Orwellian Big Sister of our darkest nightmares. From saying exactly all the wrong things, to the authoritarian demeanor, speech inflections, mannerisms and body language, all very clearly signaling her presumed superiority, including some very trippy head-tilting befitting a lord of the star chamber grown weary of bothersome questions. 

Yaccarino passed along to everyone watching, and I for one believe her, how committed X is “to encouraging healthy behavior online.” One aspect of X’s methodology in encouraging healthy behavior that Yaccarino was especially pleased with is how ‘staggeringly’ effective X employees are at both deciding what is unhealthy content and then, if not removing it entirely, hiding from view any such unhealthiness found on her platform. She smoothly glided past a question by the interviewer regarding who gets to decide what ‘healthy’ content is as if she herself had been created in an AI lab solely to assume the position she now inhabits lording over free speech on the most important socio-political discussion platform ever. 

And then came the rhyming.

Touting the success of Freedom of Speech, Not Reach, a corporate free speech suppression gimmick that literally means that you can say what you want on X, but X is in no way obliged to actually publish you to anyone but yourself, Yaccarino added another rhyming humdinger from the twisted company brain trust that brought you FOSNR.

If it is lawful, but it is awful…

Beyond this being an insult to the memory of Johnny Cochran, does the rest of what she said even matter? You know what’s coming. Censorship. Some form of (they think) clever censorship that will surely befuddle the inferior masses. 

Linda, the drill makes a sound and we know that sound. You can change the name of your platform to any letter of the alphabet you like, but as you haven’t as yet figured out how to cut off the electricity to our homes or shut off our internet access and you haven’t gotten (at least not yet) to where you can turn off our access to our own money (working on it) you’re limited to either throwing us off the platform entirely, which is completely unnecessary at this point, or making sure that no one else on X can see our contributions. 

If someone posts a comment on X that is, as Yaccarino puts it, lawful but awful, she openly admits that the busy bees at X will make it “extraordinarily difficult” for anyone else on the platform to see it. And the way she lays into extraordinarily you know she means it.

Who exactly, or what, is handling the incredible workload of deciding what users will be platformed on X and what content they’ve posted is either healthy or awful? Yep. Meet the new boss. Same as the old boss. Twitter employees and algorithms.

“We have an extraordinary team of people who are overseeing, hands on keyboard, monitoring, all day, every day, to make sure that that 99.99 percent of impressions remain at that number.”

Oh, did I forget to tell you about the 99. whatever percent of impressions thing?  

That’s the number of all posted impressions that Yaccarino can confidently sit before us today and say are healthy

Hmm. Somehow she says healthy and I hear pure. I must have been infected with some less-than-optimal thoughts after reading a book or two. What then exactly is being hidden on X? Yep. You must have read the same books I did. Impure thoughts. You can have them. You can even post them on X. But we will, to staggering degrees of success, hide them from the world.

And, by the way, we’re shooting for the old Ivory Soap standard. Nothing less than 99.99 percent pure will do.

If only this were Orwellian fiction. If only so many of us were not suckered into believing that Elon Musk’s purchase of Twitter would result in the platforming of free speech at a moment in both American and world history that has never more desperately needed a communications platform that would allow absolutely unfettered freedom for citizens the world over to voice our disagreements with those who govern this planet; our dissidence, our outrage, our questioning of authority, our disagreements with each other, and then to formulate and express together, as truly free citizens exercising our once unassailable right of free speech, our own thoughts, objections, suspicions, our own demands for change, and our own solutions and hopes for better tomorrows. 

Say goodbye to all that. 

I would love to suggest that these people don’t even know what free speech means. Oh that we were that lucky. They could then be educated. They could be turned. But that’s not what’s happening. They are corporate animals. And I am sure that every single person reading this has had some experience with corporations. The team at X has crafted a narrative that absolves them from doing exactly what they are doing. In this case, it is suppressing free speech. In any case, it is what corporations do. 

But why are they doing it after Elon Musk promised to do the polar opposite with Twitter? I can say something about the inevitability of this giant billionaire-owned business eventually reverting back to behaving like a giant billionaire-owned business. I could say, as many long have, that Elon never intended to allow free speech and was only messing with us. I think there’s plenty of truth in just these two explanations coming off the top of my head. But I can’t know the specifics. 

The early adoption of a freedom of speech suppressing catch phrase long before Yaccarino took the helm of Twitter was a solid hint that more of the same would be coming. Her selection as CEO set off alarm bells for many familiar with her background. 

I will say that I believe with the utmost certainty that the two now most prominent figures at X know full well that they’re actively plotting and engaging in the suppression of free speech on their platform and that they are further tweaking and designing a social media X-Twitter-scape that will continue to obscure both their true intentions as well as hiding away from public view what they and the rest of the establishment classes would doubtless agree are the unhealthy thoughts and opinions of much too many of us. 

I believe that Elon Musk and Linda Yaccarino fully understand what free speech is and exactly what they’re doing to it on their platform. They certainly understand what free speech means to them and their platform.

But they certainly don’t understand what free speech means to me. I promise you; they have no fucking idea. And they have no idea what free speech means to this country. Still means. Will always mean. If they did then no matter what these two have done in their lives so far or ever hoped to do going forward, they wouldn’t be doing this. They wouldn’t be doing to free speech in America what they’re doing to it right now.

Yesterday, watching Yaccarino’s first public performance as X-CEO was a dark day for me. I believe it will come to be seen as a dark day for free speech everywhere. But I have to say this, I think it was an especially dark day for the platform formerly known as Twitter.  

So this is my message for the platform now known as X; its owner, its corporate leadership, and everyone who works there.

People the world over have been through so much. We’ve just come through a once in a century pandemic that killed possibly tens of millions. And throughout that pandemic we were locked down in our own homes, our businesses and schools shut down, all involuntarily. We were mandated to take vaccines that were poorly tested or lose our jobs. 

And yet we weren’t permitted to speak amongst ourselves about so much of this on the social media platforms that have become our connections with each other, yours included. 

We were lied to about the most likely origins of the virus. And we weren’t allowed to talk about that either. 

We then found out, by way of YOU, Elon, that our government, federal law enforcement and homeland security, along with elements of the Democratic Party and party friendly NGOs were all working to silence the voices of Americans on Twitter. We learned, for instance, how the effort to crush the Hunter Biden laptop story prior to the 2020 election was the result of coordination between these political and governmental entities and social media platforms. 

And this is just a fraction of how the ability of Americans to openly discuss and debate issues pertaining to their very lives was suppressed by Twitter’s own efforts. There is so much more that has been done to us on this platform and others.

Yes, people have been through a lot these last five years. We will be in the process of recovering from it all for a very long time. But couldn’t you give us back those five years? Elon? Linda? I’m speaking directly to you both. Couldn’t you just allow people on your platform to speak freely for five years, without your staggeringly effective suppression of our most basic freedom as Americans?

Couldn’t you give back to the people of a nation that has depended so much on free speech throughout its history the years of that precious freedom the platform you now control took from us? 

My Problem With the Indie Left Media: A tree falling in the woods is handed a microphone. Here’s what he has to say.

So, I’ve decided to write this piece to expose, I hope to a great extent, a serious issue I’m having with this now essential, possibly democracy saving, new form of political journalism that I myself love and depend on to provide my heart and mind with the hope that at least someone with a bigger platform than my own is seeing what’s happening in the world as I see it. 

And that hope was truly reinvigorated over the last five years upon discovering that so many bright well-educated young people are of much the same mind regarding our current cultural and political challenges as this old dude. 

I’m referring, of course, to those now suddenly never-more important outside-the-mainstream independent media voices that initially coalesced around podcasting, moved on to the slick studio-based news and political analysis programing we see daily on YouTube and other streaming platforms, as well as the many who have found a home here on Substack. 

One thing that has been a constant and oh-so-true refrain on indie media for the entirety of its existence is that the mainstream establishment press isn’t reporting on so many stories that have great importance to the public. Who could put a number on how many times we’ve heard that complaint coming from the hosts of Rising or Breaking Points or from Joe Rogan, Glenn Greenwald, or Russell Brand? 

And that’s essentially why we watch and listen to these voices and why they even exist in the first place. It’s why they are necessary. They’re filling a void. The very existence of that void represents an egregious failure. It shouldn’t be there. The mainstream news media should be telling the stories we see every day on the independents. But, almost invariably, it is only on indie media that such stories are brought before the public. 

I’m just going to leave that thought out there with the hope that it will continue to resonate for the remainder of this piece.  

One such story, likely the most important story any journalist alive at this historic moment will ever cover, is the almost exclusively journalistic pursuit of the truth about the origins of the COVID-19 pandemic. 

I say almost because there are efforts being made in the United States Senate by the Republican minority. But heretofore it’s really been only independent journalists, along with a smattering of scientific researchers, doggedly working their way through documentary evidence, that has brought us closer than we’ve ever been to knowing how a novel coronavirus first infected humans in Wuhan, China, a truly cataclysmic event that led to millions of lives being lost around the world.  

Out in that very real world, millions died from the virus, leaving behind tens of millions more permanently traumatized by what happened to their families over the last four years. But it is my observation, potentially flawed as it may be, that we’re not hearing from those people. Their tragic first-hand coronavirus stories are not, as far as I can tell, being widely shared with the public. 

So it is my most sincere hope for this particular piece that I’m able to impress upon the devoted journalists and scientists pursuing the lab leak story, and anyone else for that matter, that they should look at the continuing public conversation about the lab leak and really all things relating to the pandemic and notice that there is one thing glaringly absent from the conversation: That would be the voices of those who have actually lost family to the coronavirus, their stories, their tragic details, giving first-hand accounts of the trauma visited upon them and their loved ones by this most awful, and most likely man-made, human catastrophe. 

Almost two weeks ago I posted a piece here on Substack telling of one such family’s experience with COVID. It was the story of my own wife’s family; her brothers and sisters as well as one nephew. 

But the piece I published, ‘Let the Inquisition Begin’ isn’t just a story of COVID hitting some people, it’s a story of COVID hitting certain people, a certain type and class of Americans who aren’t really on the radar of either the prestige legacy media or even the indie voices who appear to share with their mainstream counterparts an economic and educational background that stands very far apart from the kind of people who typically live in the regions of the country where my wife, her family, and I all come from. 

My piece is the story of what happened when a lab-engineered supervirus hit one Western Pennsylvania family. And, as such, it’s also very much a story about COVID hitting a family in the context of that family’s socio-economic positioning in America and, also, to their tragic detriment, their place on the world stage of events. 

How our family reacted to everyone suddenly coming down with COVID maybe speaks to how so many Americans reacted to coming down with COVID and why there was a disproportionate amount of more severe cases and deaths the further down in class victims of the virus happened to be. 

But my piece is also a story of the many working-class eccentricities of Americans living outside the coastal enclaves of the highly educated and generationally affluent and how those eccentricities played into the outcomes that were more likely to be experienced by such Americans. 

Interesting stuff, no? They used to call these human-interest stories. I’m not sure if they still do. They’ve been an essential part of the journalistic tradition forever. They bring often tragic personal stories home to readers in such ways that people can more easily relate to. They have an emotional impact that mere factual reporting most often doesn’t. 

These are all things that are contained in my piece. Some of it is overtly addressed and some of it is written between the lines. And some is probably just baked into my writing without me even knowing it due to my voice being that of a person who comes from that very same background. These are the things that make my piece important and, as incredible as this seems to me with upwards of 10 million dead worldwide, more than just a little bit rare at this moment. 

But these are the kinds of things I would be talking about, if anyone in the media was actually talking to me about my piece.

Today, whenever someone is unjustly killed, murdered in a criminal act, or by an act of negligence, or by accidents that just shouldn’t have happened, even just one single human being, we might hear about that death on the news for years. Then that single solitary death might be deemed a historically important event and be recorded as such and thus live forever as a political touchstone.

The lead story on one of the 10 PM news broadcasts here in LA the week prior to me publishing my piece was of demonstrations calling for justice in the absolutely unacceptable police shooting of a Trader Joe’s worker that happened after a gunman entered the store in which she was working. It was a terrible and unnecessary taking of a much-loved young woman’s life. But it happened five years ago. Just one death. And yet here it was opening the 10 PM news broadcast in Los Angeles five years later. 

And that’s fine. It really is. But the thing is, in contrast, we’re not hearing at all from families who suffered the worst outcomes of a pandemic that very well might have killed upwards of 10 million people worldwide. Are we? My sincere answer to that question is that we are not, but if I’m wrong about that please, someone, show me those stories. 

There’s no question that a major factor in the dearth of stories coming from families who suffered the worst outcomes during the pandemic is that the general public, by and large, especially the part of the public that isn’t watching independent media on YouTube or reading Substack newsletters, is unaware of how convincing the evidence has become that the virus was the result of both gain of function research and an accidental lab leak. 

And even though a recent poll shows that two thirds of the American public believe a lab leak to be the most likely cause of the coronavirus pandemic, we’re still a long way from anything that looks like a firm confirmation of that likelihood being delivered to and processed for what it is by the citizens of this country and the rest of the world. 

So if a significant percentage of Americans are still ambivalent about the origin of the virus, if there’s no breaking news confirmation of the lab leak theory on their broadcast network television screens, something that appears unlikely under any foreseeable circumstances, and they’re looking at the pandemic as a terrible, once in a century act of nature, then I will admit there’s not going to be much of a market for stories of people’s families getting sick with what the mainstream media has consistently and quite rigidly maintained was a completely naturally occurring virus.

It’s only the looming possibility of COVID-19 having come from dangerous scientific research and a disastrous accidental lab leak that supercharges the millions of tragic individual stories that can be told from around the world of the destruction of lives that occurred as a result of government funded scientific research gone horribly wrong. 

Thus the piece on my wife’s family’s devastating encounter with the coronavirus has turned into almost an unintentional scientific experiment of its own. Where does this story go? How far? Does it just die on my Substack page with pretty much no one having read it? It seems at this point that that’s where things are going. Or will my wife’s family’s story be carried to a wider audience? 

Are any of the conversations happening around these matters even now being carried to wider audiences? I’m referring to the daily coverage and analysis on indie media of the many COVID controversies over vaccines, lockdowns, and, of course, the highly polarizing journalistic pursuit of the true origins of the virus.

It seems to me that all of these subjects and the discussions surrounding them are, at this point, occurring only between a few thousand people, if that, largely on social or new media platforms that the vast majority of the human race doesn’t interact with. 

How do we get these stories in front of a wider audience? What happens if we are unable to? At what point do even people with powerful voices and important stories to tell simply give up? 

I find myself grappling with those questions a lot lately. If virtually no one is reading my pieces, if they’re not even being shared by the like-minded, how much longer will I continue to do this? 

At this point it would seem to me that everyone is part of the control mechanisms of who gets heard in society. Not just the government or social media platforms overtly trying to limit and control free speech. It’s even fellow travelers. It’s even those working in the areas of uncovering the truths about the pandemic and those directly fighting the government and corporate efforts to censor the voices of the American people. 

Everyone is now a part of the determining of whose voices are heard in society. This is now an unavoidable modern-day reality that’s part of the inherent feature set of the mostly social media platforms we’re all using to interact with each other.

As of this writing, it looks like 144 people have read my Inquisition piece here on Substack. 

Some of the more important voices on this platform have hundreds of thousands of subscribers and collectively millions of followers on Twitter. Just one retweet from any of the indie media accounts I tagged when I first published my piece almost two weeks ago and thousands would have already read the story of what happened to my wife’s family.

Everything that the independent media is doing on the subject of the COVID-19 lab leak story and most every other subject they cover is about telling people what happened. That’s what they do. And I’m sure, that by telling people what happened, they’re hoping that people will then demand better from those in power. 

What the independent media is all about is getting a response from the public. Is it not? 

I’m certainly no different. I’m not writing pieces on Substack for my own enjoyment. I’m writing them because I want them to be read, I want my voice to be heard, and I want to have an impact on the issues that I believe matter most to the American public. I’m that old dude. 

And from what I can see, I’m no different, in that respect, than those who make up the independent media. I think we’re all trying to accomplish the same things. 

The quality of work and analysis coming from this relatively tiny group of individuals who make up the independent left media is I believe unmatched in my lifetime. In comparison, I’m just a grumpy voice coming from the back row where I belong. But all of our voices are badly needed right now, maybe like never before in the history of this country. 

I don’t worry about the sincerity and commitment of the independent media voices I follow and support. It does however seem to me to be a bit of a clubby closed group with a lot of people competing for the attention of a limited segment of the public and any rewards that might bring. 

I would strongly suggest to those who make up the independent media that they should more readily embrace voices coming from the general public who make the kinds of serious efforts I’ve made as well as so many others. 

They must be seeking an impassioned response from the public as they produce their badly needed journalistic work. Things only change when there is such a response from the public. My pieces here on Substack are a part of that response. 

Please help make sure that our voices from the back row are being heard, too.

Days of Agony

The first we heard of sickness back home was mid-November 2021. My wife’s youngest brother, Anthony, an associate English professor at Robert Morris University, was having GI issues. Persistent diarrhea to be exact. Then the entire family still living in our hometown of Aliquippa, Pennsylvania had what seemed to be bad colds, then fevers. 

Bernadette is one of eight siblings: four brothers and four sisters. We’re in Los Angeles. Another sister is in Florida. The other six, along with her youngest sister’s husband and 26-year-old son, lived in three households in the Pittsburgh area. That makes eight close family members in all living in western PA. 

Like a pair of California cliches, we got on Amazon and ordered for Anthony a Chinese herb we’ve taken in the past for digestive problems. He’d been the one relaying information to us here in LA and it wasn’t long before updates on the three brothers living together under one roof in the Plan 12 section of Aliquippa became less frequent but increasingly worrisome. My wife came back to LA in late March 2022 after her first trip home to Pittsburgh since COVID struck her family. She brought back the Chinese herb we’d ordered on Amazon four months earlier. It was unopened.

Throughout the pandemic, most Americans were confused about what exactly to do should they fall ill with COVID. From the first large wave of outbreaks in the US in the late spring of 2020, when hospitals were at or near their capacities due to emergency rooms being flooded with people sick from the novel coronavirus, the official stance centered largely on folks contacting their personal physicians. It seemed from there the advice of doctors was mostly to isolate at home and to not go to a hospital until the onset of significant difficulty breathing.

Of course, many Americans don’t have a family doctor. This inconvenient wrinkle in the American healthcare system would only compound the potential missteps for so many who happened to be suffering a sudden and potentially deadly illness. This certainly played a role in what happened to my wife’s family. So for them, and I’m sure so many others, the confusion about what to do should someone fall ill with COVID, something that persists to this day I would suggest, combined with the realities of the tenuous relationships so many Americans have with their own nation’s health care systems, all but guaranteed countless unnecessarily bad outcomes. 

The part of Pennsylvania where we come from, sitting near the foothills of the Appalachian Mountains, is in the heart of what was once America’s rust belt. Despite being just west of Pittsburgh, with its great universities and thriving downtown, Aliquippa and the surrounding communities, like most of the areas outside of the city, have never really recovered from the decline of the American steel industry. 

So take that national confusion about what to do in the event that you or someone you know should come down with COVID and drop it deep into what’s left of a tough industrial working-class mindset. People are stubborn and apprehensive of even generating an ambulance bill, let alone what might come later in the mail from a trip to the ER. Mistakes will be made. None of the five living in our hometown had a primary care physician and there was a real resistance to dialing 911 in all three households.

When we were able to get through to Anthony, he was often barely able to speak. One evening he told us his next oldest brother, John, was lying half off his bed, semi-conscious. Anthony himself was too weak to check on his oldest brother, “Winnie,” a tough 73-year-old Vietnam vet who was now bedridden in another part of the house. 

Across town from Anthony and his two older brothers, in the DiMattia section of Aliquippa, Mickey, the oldest sister at 70, was sick but able to move around her house and answer the phone. But her younger brother, Jay, 67, who’d moved in with her about a dozen years earlier, hadn’t been out of bed in more than a week.   

Anthony and John are 58 and 60 years old respectively. They are referred to in the family as “the boys.” I’m 65 and I’ve known them since they were 10 and 12 years old. By now everyone fully suspects that this is COVID. Text messages from Anthony told us that things were only getting worse where he was in Plan 12 with his two older brothers. So the day after Thanksgiving we called my wife’s youngest sister, Basie, who lives about 25 miles away on the outskirts of Pittsburgh and told her that the two youngest boys needed to go to the hospital. 

This led to a moment when the unforgiving biological realities of the coronavirus would collide with the uncertainty and suspicions of strong-willed people who had been, up to that very moment, able to live most of their long lives virtually outside of the American healthcare system.  

Basie and her husband Keith were going to make the half-hour drive down to Aliquippa. So the conversation from here in LA went something like this:

Don’t go into the house. Call 911 and watch the EMTs put the boys in the ambulances and then go home. The hospital will admit them. Whatever you do, don’t go into that house and don’t drive the boys to the hospital yourselves. Call 911. 

And this is how we left it. The boys would be getting proper medical care, and that’s all we needed to happen at that time.

But Basie was sure she’d already had COVID back in the spring of 2020. She’d had some minor symptoms consistent with COVID and had lost her sense of smell and taste for weeks. She felt that she had immunity to the virus. Keith also thought that he’d been exposed to COVID at work and could count on having some immunity. And there was that hesitancy to call 911 and incur likely hefty ambulance bills. So the pair did go into the house in Plan 12 and proceeded to drive Anthony and John themselves to the ER at UPMC-Heritage in Beaver, Pa.

This was Friday evening, November 26. 

It’s stunning for us to think about it now, but until this very moment in November of 2021, with the US death toll slowly nearing 800K, neither of us here in California had known a single person who’d had COVID. And after what had been a merciful respite from the many waves of coronavirus here in LA throughout the summer, we felt safe enough in November, with about 60K other people, to go to a Sunday Night Steelers-Chargers football game at SoFi Stadium. 

There’s not a personal story about someone’s tragic experience with COVID that’s likely to hold the average American’s attention for long at this point. We’re all just so over this horrific era in human history. And yet the politicization of the pandemic, on all of its many fronts, from masking and lockdowns to the wars over vaccine mandates and harmful side effects of the jab, seems to grow more passionately divisive every day and will likely be with us long after the last COVID variant disappears over the horizon. 

In the ER the boys sat waiting for hours before being taken back to an examination room where they tested positive for COVID. They were told that their vital signs were good and that it was too many days into their infection for them to receive colloidal antibody treatment. They were given Tylenol and sent home. During the long wait at the ER, Keith had taken Basie home. He then drove the boys back to their house in Aliquippa. 

When we learned that the boys had been sent home from the hospital we were devastated. The family was well into their second week of what we now knew to be COVID and were only getting sicker. By that time, in late 2021, we thought Delta was the most likely variant the family was suffering with and so we knew the danger they were in. These were days of agony for my wife. 

A week after the boys were sent home from the ER, Bernadette walked into our apartment from work with her cell phone to her ear. She was talking with Mickey, her oldest sister. The pitch of Bernadette’s voice froze me in my seat and on the other end Mickey was speaking so loudly I could hear every word she was saying from across the room. Jay’s car hadn’t been started in weeks and he’d gotten out of bed, dressed, and gone outside to move it from the street into the driveway. But that was 45 minutes ago and now, Mickey said, he was just sitting there, behind the wheel. 

I’d experienced something like this before in my life. What I always remember about that time is that it didn’t really seem like what it was. And if it wasn’t for what I knew was happening back in Pennsylvania at this moment, and the stress in my wife’s voice when she came through the front door, I honestly wouldn’t have been paying much attention to what was being said between these two sisters. 

“Tell her to go outside and check on him.” I remember how my words startled my wife. It was as if me simply telling her to tell Mickey to go out and do this most obvious thing had pushed a button that instantly brought Bernadette’s worst fears to the surface. The reality was a most devastating realization of those fears. 

Jay had passed away sitting in the driver’s seat of his car. You never forget these moments in your life. The details of a family tragedy will always burn themselves into your memory. For me it was my wife shouting into the phone over and over again, “He’s dead?” clearly begging for it not to be true. And then her wailing.

This was a family of eight siblings who’d reached, on average, their mid-sixties without ever having lost anyone. Jay’s death was simply unbelievable to all of us. 

Jay had possessed such a brilliant mind that when we were young I remember always being intimidated in his presence. I will never, in all my life, read as many books as Jay consumed in any one single year of his. He was incredibly soft-spoken but he was the kind of person you stepped up to with your own intelligence. What I remember most about every conversation I ever had with him was the questions which so often stumped me but also what an intense and respectful listener he was. I so wish now that I’d spent more of the last 37 years I’ve been in LA back home talking with him and learning from him. 

But we could hardly focus on grieving for Jay. We couldn’t simply do what families do when a loved one passes and try to process our loss. This was COVID-19 and our eyes were wide open. Jay was 67 years old but he was in solid physical condition. He took vitamins by the handful. He walked every day, was a frequent hiker and, for most of his life, a weightlifter. Other than Anthony, he was certainly the next most physically fit member of the family. He had no comorbidities and no health issues at all that the family was aware of and yet COVID had killed him in a little over two weeks. Across town, Anthony, John, and Winnie were likewise three weeks into a virus that so often only begins to do its worst to the human body as infections move beyond the second week. Bernadette was now terrified that she would lose even more family to the virus. 

My wife, her sisters, Keith, and I discussed whether we should tell the boys that Jay had passed. We all agreed that it wasn’t the right time, as we believed that the three were themselves still very much in a fight for their lives. So when Bernadette talked with Anthony the next day and he asked how Jay was doing, she told him that Jay was in the hospital. His response will stay with her always, “That’s where I should be.” 

The next day, Basie and Keith had just left the boys in Aliquippa and called us on their way home. We were told it was a beautiful Saturday in Pittsburgh. I remember my wife and I were driving somewhere in Santa Monica to get dinner and we four were on speaker phone in the car. As far as they could tell the three brothers’ conditions hadn’t worsened and we all took that as good news. I think after such a terrible loss we needed one moment and just one phone conversation that could be characterized as hopeful. But at the end of our conversation Basie added that she had a scratchy throat and felt like she was catching a cold. 

So, if you’re wondering, by now, as everyone reading this must surely be, was anyone in this family vaccinated? The answer is no. No one was vaccinated. There was a very strong anti-vaccine sentiment among the girls in the family that, believe it or not, persists to this day. The boys, however, were far less political and had seemed more or less ambivalent about getting vaccinated against COVID. But, ultimately, none of the four brothers were vaccinated. 

Three Ambulances, Three Hospitals 

The next day Keith drove down to Aliquippa alone to check on the boys as Basie had gotten sicker overnight. Moments after stepping into the house in Plan 12 and without even looking in on the other two brothers, Keith was on the phone with 911. Anthony, a marvelously fit bicyclist and hiker, and a notoriously healthy eater, was unresponsive, apparently conscious but staring blankly and unable to move or speak. Keith immediately suspected that he’d had a stroke. 

Each of the three brothers were taken to different hospitals. Winnie, the Vietnam vet, was taken to the VA hospital in Pittsburgh. He would be there for almost a month as he was treated for a blood clot on his lung. John, who’d been so weak that he was unable to speak on the phone since the entire ordeal began, was taken to UPMC Sewickley Valley Hospital with COVID pneumonia where he would stay for three weeks before being transferred to an extended care facility for an extra month to recover his strength. 

Anthony was life-flighted to Presbyterian, the stellar University of Pittsburgh adjacent medical center in the Oakland section of the city. The main threat to his survival those first weeks he was at Presby was still very much COVID-19. His oxygen levels were so low that the next step would have been putting him on a ventilator. My wife and I here in California were now the family contacts making medical decisions for Anthony. There was a conversation with one of the incredibly kind doctors taking care of him. I remember he used the word devastating to describe the stroke Anthony had suffered. He said it three times. 

The takeaway from the discussion was that given the severity of Anthony’s stroke and the difficulties he would have simply recovering from that level of brain injury, putting him on a ventilator for an indeterminable period of time was something that neither the family nor the doctor felt would have been the best decision for Anthony. 

Fortunately, it never came to that. Slowly, the grip that COVID-19 had on Anthony’s respiratory system eased. Within a month, he would be transferred to UPMC Montefiore which specializes in rehabilitation. But Anthony’s condition was not suitable for the level of rehabilitation therapies offered there so we were immediately tasked with finding a skilled nursing facility that had room for him and, it was hoped, one with a good track record for rehabilitating stroke victims. 

Deciding on where Anthony should go led to one of those cards-on-the-table moments that no family ever wants to face. My wife and I were out walking on Canon Drive on a bright January morning. Her cell phone rings. It’s a patient relations rep at Montefiore following up on what extended care facilities in the Pittsburgh area might work best for Anthony. We step into the doorway of a closed shop and put her on speaker phone. But in order to give informed input on where we would like Anthony to be sent, we now have to have, finally, that no-illusions discussion establishing exactly what his condition is, what it really means, and what his prospects are. 

There’s not much talk about sending Anthony somewhere where he’s going to get specialized physical rehab, he’s far from being a candidate for that. He’s paralyzed, of course, on his right side but they have to keep him restrained because he’s not mentally aware enough to avoid interfering with the IV and feeding tube with the mobility he still has on his left side. These graphic realities of her youngest brother’s condition move across my wife’s face like a shadow. She would tell me later that until that moment, she’d had hope. She’d really thought Anthony was going to get better. 

While all of this was happening, back in Oakdale, just outside of Pittsburgh, Basie had continued to worsen. At one point her son would find her unresponsive in the bathroom. When the ambulance took her away, her husband was too sick himself to accompany his wife to the hospital. Basie would spend the better part of three weeks in the hospital but would ultimately pull through without any long-term complications. Keith would quickly recover from his COVID infection. 

Their slim 26-year-old son, however, would also come down with the virus, and he would develop a blood clot, something that by all accounts was very rare in younger COVID patients. But thankfully, he too would recover within a few weeks. 

Jay’s official cause of death was recorded as a pulmonary embolism, a blood clot in the lung, that came as he and his three brothers were into their third week of being bedridden with COVID. But COVID isn’t mentioned on his death certificate. Anthony’s stroke was caused by a blood clot in the brain. Winnie had a blood clot in his lung. Basie’s biological son developed a blood clot. All within one month’s time. None of these people had been vaccinated. All had COVID. None had received any COVID treatments before presenting with blood clots or the devastating effects of blood clots. None of them were ever placed on a ventilator.

We know that what happened to my wife’s family was unusual. Eight sick with COVID. Six of those eight, very ill. Total time spent in hospital by the family was close to four months. Four blood clots. One devastating stroke that ruined a 58-year-old’s life forever. And one tragic death. Yes, this was unusual. But it wasn’t unheard of during COVID. And it wasn’t anywhere close to being the worst outcome suffered by an American family during the pandemic. 

A Call For Justice

Throughout the COVID-19 pandemic, we were told repeatedly to trust the science. And more than anyone on the face of the earth, the person most representative of the science that Americans were being told to trust was Dr. Anthony Fauci. But now we see that Dr. Fauci may have knowingly circumvented the 2014 directive of former President Barack Obama to pause any further gain of function research on harmful viruses within the American scientific research community. 

We have also recently learned that Dr. Fauci may have influenced the creation of a paper entitled The Proximal Origins of SARS-CoV-2 that sought to divert attention away from the idea that the novel coronavirus had been engineered by research scientists in the Wuhan Institute of Virology working off a grant that had come from Fauci’s own National Institute of Health.

If this is true it likely led to a scenario never before seen in human history: A pandemic, actively killing millions around the world, caused by a virus that was created in a laboratory through research that was both outlawed by the government of the United States, while at the same time it was being sanctioned and funded by decision makers at the highest levels of that very same government’s public health apparatus. And the highest-ranking health official of all, someone we now know to have been administratively connected to the risky research itself as well as the deadly lab-leaked pathogen it created, was the most prominently displayed figure on our television screens as the representative of the science that we were being told to trust. 

People have called for something akin to the Nuremberg trials to pursue justice in the aftermath of the COVID-19 pandemic. Certainly, some form of international world court would be justified and appropriate in the wake of the global death and societal destruction caused by what appears now to have been scientific research gone terribly wrong. Families and victims of what happened over the last four years should be far more than simply present at any such proceedings as mere voices on the sidelines. People who have lost loved ones must have the most prominent of voices in any official proceeding that seeks justice for this most disastrous course of human events in any of our lifetimes.

The court must be unimpeachable in the eyes of the public the world over and the punishments it hands down must be commensurate with the unprecedented loss of life that resulted from both the failures of scientific negligence as well as the intentional bureaucratic acts that paved the way for this human catastrophe. Justice must be served for the tens of millions whose lives were taken if we are to ever trust science again.

Likewise, anyone who participated in a cover up of evidence pointing to a scientifically engineered super-virus and the potential of that virus escaping from the Wuhan Institute of Virology must also face the most severe of punishments.

Just think of what could have been done had we known precisely where and how the virus originated back in the early days of the pandemic. We could have had the most pinpoint focused contact tracing possible enabling us to quarantine only those who had actually been in direct contact with the virus instead of locking down the entire human race for nearly two years. And it is entirely possible that we could have isolated SARS-CoV-2 in one region of the world and avoided completely the deadliest global pandemic in over 100 years.

Aftermath

My wife has lived in LA for 35 years and almost every one of those years, with the exception of 2020, she’s flown home at least three times a year to be with her brothers and sisters. Her love for her family is so strong that it would surely be seen as irrational by those who suggest severing ties with family members who refused to be vaccinated. 

In the 16 months since her first trip back after COVID struck her family she’s gone home to Pittsburgh ten times. She spends most of her time there now with her brother Anthony in the skilled nursing facility where he has been for the last year and a half. Bernadette always believed that Anthony would get better, and at the end of the day nothing she could have been told by those attending to her brother would have changed her mind.

Anthony was a physical specimen throughout his pre-COVID life. He was naturally muscular even as a teenager and was devoted to keeping himself fit. Many years ago, I pointed out to Bernadette how similar in physique, facial appearance and mannerisms her youngest brother was to a young Lebron James. (Except for Anthony being 5’9” and Italian.) And just like that, a lifelong Lebron James fan was born. We all believe that had Anthony not been in the condition he was in he would not have survived COVID. 

My wife’s love and devotion to her brother has lifted his spirits and the many hours she’s spent with him has made a pronounced impact on his progress. Her familial instincts and her faith that Anthony would get better have been proven correct. He has gotten better. He smiles, laughs, and tells us that he’s happy. He can now even stand up on his own and walk short distances. 

But gone is the person he used to be. 

Yes, Anthony can speak. And his mind will sometimes latch onto a big word. But they are only shards of thoughts that don’t really make much sense and are, to his family, only faint reminders of the fierce intelligence that Anthony once possessed. He cannot read. He cannot answer questions. He cannot seem to formulate his thoughts. Gone is the person who spoke and wrote Russian and spoke French and Kazakh fluently. Gone is the person who taught English for 15 years in Moscow and Kazakhstan for the United States Information Service and Georgetown University as a Senior English Teaching Fellow. Gone is the intellectual that Anthony once was. 

I speak now for him and Jay and for my wife and her family and I suspect millions of families around the world when I say that someone has to pay for this. 

A most sincere and deeply felt thank you goes out to all of the independent media voices and journalists for helping, by way of their relentless hard work and dogged professionalism, to provide an appropriate and long-awaited resolution to this piece which was started over a year and half ago. Those journalists have kept this story alive and brought us to this point where we have never been closer to finding out the truth about the origins of the COVID-19 pandemic. But let this moment be only the beginning of a global effort by humanity to achieve justice for what has occurred over the last four years.

Kennedy Girls: RFK Jr.’s pursuit of the Democratic nomination hits home

In 1999, the local newspaper in Beaver County, Pennsylvania asked for letters from readers giving their thoughts or reflections in recognition of Black History Month. I submitted the following. It opens by referencing a letter I’d written to the same paper the previous year.

Last year, in response to a series of articles in this newspaper addressing the various issues involving race and racism in Beaver County, I wrote a letter to the Times in which I stated that I wasn’t taught racism by my parents. While that statement is true, it is, of course, not that simple. I don’t recall, for instance, my father ever speaking badly of black people. But then he never, as far as I can remember, said anything at all to me about race or the problems of racism in America. My mother, on the other hand, was born and raised in Alabama and more than anything else it is the stories she told of the injustices she witnessed, first in the south but also later in Pennsylvania, that forever shaped my own views regarding matters of race.

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I want to share two of these stories with the people of Beaver County, certainly in recognition of Black History month, but moreover because of the effect that these stories have had on me; in helping to form my own understanding of the ways in which America has so often failed to honor its promise of equality and justice, and the ways in which so many Americans have dishonored their country’s legacy, infusing it with a history of violence and oppression. 

It’s important to note that the racism my mother witnessed and relayed to me was not the vague disquieting negativity that is, sadly, something seemingly intrinsic in varying degrees to all of us, black and white. My mother’s stories were of overt acts, vivid examples of the outrageous and indefensible social crashes that developed from and were legitimized by the culture of mistrust and hatred that has existed for centuries in America. They are stories told from a perspective that is not often heard on the subject of profound racial injustice: that of a white person who was there and who is not socially or psychologically constrained from bearing witness. And, of course, these are the accounts that have been traditionally left out of official records and newspapers. They are alternative views of events in a historical era that one is not likely to find in history books.  

The most extraordinary of my mother’s stories occurred in Augusta, GA immediately after World War II. My father had been injured in Europe and was convalescing in Oliver General Hospital, adjacent to the same golf course which now, ironically, hosts the prestigious event that Tiger Woods’s name will always be synonymous with, The Masters Tournament. 

My mother was having lunch in a coffee shop in downtown Augusta when a black window-washer fell from his scaffold to the pavement below, just outside the restaurant’s window. A crowd, which included my mother, formed around the critically injured man and an ambulance was summoned. But when the ambulance arrived, those in charge refused to transport the injured man to a hospital. The ambulance, it seems, was for whites only. A black ambulance would have to be called. My mother, having spent a number of years in the north, was outraged and pleaded for the immediate transport of the fallen window-washer. “If I take him in this ambulance,” the driver explained to her, “no white person will ever ride in it again.”  

By my mother’s account the window washer would have died anyway, no matter what medical procedures were taken to save him but, incredibly, he died there on the sidewalk with no medical attention being administered whatsoever. And the story does not end there. In Augusta, small city that it was, news of my mother’s behavior traveled fast. Just hours after the tragedy she was informed by the owner of the boarding house where she was staying that she would have to find someplace else to live. “We don’t coddle our n—— around here,” she was told.

This was the south before African Americans effectively organized themselves, fought for and won the civil rights that most of white America in those days seemed quite comfortable denying them. But another story that my mother told took place in our own Beaver County, during the early 1960’s. And although not of the tragic magnitude of the window-washer’s outrageous treatment, it may be, due to the local political environment in which it takes place, a more useful example of manifest systemic racism.

In 1960, during John F. Kennedy’s presidential campaign, my mother was a close friend of this region’s state senator. Due in part to this association and due in part to the fact that my mother founded and held the charter to an organization called The Democratic Women of Greater Aliquippa, the senator assigned her the privilege of choosing Aliquippa’s Kennedy Girl. The Kennedy Girl concept was a campaign gimmick wherein teenagers from individual communities were chosen and presented solely for the purpose of creating a buzz of local publicity for the decidedly un-local Senator Kennedy. In the process of choosing the right teenager, my mother recalled one girl in particular whose singing and stage presence at a Democratic Party banquet had impressed both her and the state senator. And so, with the state senator ‘s full blessing, my mother chose a black girl from Aliquippa to be the town’s representative young person.

A group photo shoot featuring all of the local Kennedy Girls was scheduled for 9:00 AM one morning at the old Beaver Valley Tribune with pictures in the newspaper to follow shortly thereafter. In the days preceding the shoot, my mother began receiving phone calls from two prominent Beaver County democrats imploring her to reconsider her choice for Aliquippa’s Kennedy Girl. Each of the two elected officials had, it seems, chosen his own daughter for the distinction and both openly voiced the objection that they did not want their daughters to be photographed with the black girl. My mother argued that Kennedy needed the support of the area’s black voters, but she was told that the black vote in Beaver County was so minute as to be insignificant. Without painting an overly complimentary picture of my own mother, let me simply state that she did not alter her selection as requested by the two gentlemen.

On the morning of the shoot, my mother and the young lady took the drive to Beaver Falls for what they both assumed would be quite a moment for the local girl. But even after arriving at the newspaper twenty minutes early they were informed that they had come too late; the scheduled time of the photo shoot had been moved up from 9:00 AM to 8:00 AM and the photographs had already been taken. The other Kennedy Girls and their sponsors were gone. Of course there were tears on the part of the teenager from Aliquippa. One can only imagine what she must have thought at that point about white people or Democrats or even about my mother, who had naively set in motion the series of events that had resulted in her rejection.

The promise of fairness and equality prevailing above all else in America has existed ever since the founding of our nation. Yet today, just as in the window washer’s day, millions of black Americans can still claim access to only limited health care resources. How many die each year because they don’t receive proper medical treatment or procedures that are unavailable to them is anybody’s guess. And today, just as in the days of Kennedy Girls, most young black people in this country continue to be turned off at the local level by a political process that could and should enable and empower them to positively effect their own lives.

One can’t help but wonder what Aliquippa’s Kennedy Girl must have been thinking when the president she attempted to publicly support said, in his 1963 televised address on the issue of civil rights, that “The time has come for this nation to fulfill its promise.” President Kennedy’s words speak specifically to the covenant of equality that we as a nation so often take for granted. And they yet endure as a blunt challenge to all Americans.